My Shamanic Dreams - Part 4

This was still July 4th. After my first nightmare, my boyfriend and I watched Modern Family in an attempt to calm my mind. I was in a full-blown PTSD episode when he woke up and saw I was awake and something was wrong. When I felt better, we laid back down to get some sleep. This time I was back in a mountain on the inside, everything gray and white dark but bright.

There was a sort of greenhouse-looking structure made of ice up ahead. This dream is quick. I was in a group of people traveling together, it felt like we were trying to get away from something, by the next day I assumed it was a zombie apocalypse. When we reached a cavern of sorts with the ice greenhouse thing, I was suddenly running, realizing that someone in this group had been bitten. People were turning on each other. I tried to go inside the ice house, but someone was in there already, we ended up struggling, and I'm fighting them off, pushing them out of the back. We stumble out and they bite my left hand. Before I know it I'm free and running from there. I realize the group is around the bend, there's another one of those make-shift wooden ladders put together with leather straps, like from my first dream.

I pause, I don't feel good about climbing it and going into the black hole at the top. Before I know it a male zombie comes around the corner and we're fighting. I'm trying to push this man off my hand. My left one still burns from being bitten but nothing has happened. Everyone else changed immediately but I haven't. The next thing I know this guy is sinking his teeth into my right hand, right into the knuckle of my pointer finger. I can still feel it in this weird way. Both bites burned like nothing I've ever felt before but the second one is worse.

At that point, I woke up, it was time for me to wake my boyfriend for work. I was, so so tired and I felt so bad for having woken him up earlier in the night. Here we are with less than I've ever had in my life. Later that day we had to pawn the most valuable item that I own. It hurt, I'm not gonna lie but it is what it is. We have to do it to get money for gas to make it another week for him to get to work as we wait for his first check. Hopefully, we'll be able to pay for it and get it back in time. Maybe paying it forward means it only goes forward and it's not coming back around.

Don't worry I had another dream on July 5th that explains the first two dreams on July 4 and I'm OK. At least I believe I'll be OK, hopefully soon.